
June 29, 2024
When you realize you’ve had your very own Shug Avery all along, you smile. These words are my flowers to her while she’s still here to sniff them. I see you hunny! 💜
I’m 47 and I was today years old when I realized that I have had my very own personal Shug Avery for my entire life and I’m both sad and overjoyed to finally realize it only after all this time. A great big old forty-two years to be exact. It’s crazy to even think about…
Since we were kids, Vanassa (that’s who she is to me, her Daddy was the only one who always called her Asia), has been consistently, one of the warmest, sincere and charismatic people I’ve known. All perfect teeth and beautiful brown skin (the color of red-rose-steeped-tea-with-a-lil-canned milk splashed in) devilishly dimpled, good natured and wide-eyed beauty of her.
I remember us meeting for the first time in the line-up on the first day of grade primary at Allen W. Evans School. Her last name started with an S and mine with a T so we were both close to the end. Interestingly arranged in alphabetical order, I’ll never forget how she grinned at me, leaned in, boldly took my hand and we burst out laughing. We were bubbly five-year-olds growing up in the eighties who shared their first 6 years of school, in the same grade class in a segregated school.
For me, middle age has had a way of bending a lifetime of experiences into a neat feeling of peaceful acceptance. I pride myself on how I can romanticize the shit out of anything and as I approach my fifties, I believe it’s the most honest way to express my version of the world around me. I refuse to see life as either all good or all bad. Daddy used to say, “You have to take the bad with the good Rabbit.” and that adage has stubbornly stuck with me.
I think that abiding by this principal has made me accept how relationships tend to evolve over time. People change. It’s human nature and at some point in life, we all experience it. It’s not any special phenomenon, but as we mature we tend to slowly realize that things never really stay the same. Not for very long anyway. Humans experience a social evolution of sorts, brought about by growing older and perhaps eating less Kraft Dinner and it’s totally ok.
I say all that to say, that as someone who has come to accept that life and relationships change, I have an immense appreciation for Vanassa’s consistent energy.
When we were little girls, we watched cartoons and knew the words to all of the commercial jingles. We knew all the words to the popular songs on the radio, hymns, the songs our parents and older siblings played. If it could be sung, we sang it. We swapped tapes and CDs and grew up eating too many cookies. We shared lipstick and even deodorant. We regularly walked home to North Preston from Cole Harbour High School or from Mic Mac Mall. We dreamed, we confided, we laughed and we sang together one kilometer at a time.
By the time we were headed to high school, the music of Karen White, Bel Biv Devoe, Vanessa Williams, Boys To Men, TLC, Mint Condition and a multitude of other musical inspirations were in heavy rotation. I don’t think there was ever a time we were together and not singing something. It was near to impossible. If it wasn’t her Daddy, Mr. Reggie getting me to sing old songs By The Four Tops, it was us trying to be En Vogue and harmonizing our little diaphragms out. Vanassa was our conductor, our vocal arranger, our manager and always had our backing track. In those good ole days, it was Holly, Me, Susie and Nessa and she simply appreciated the harmony of our friendship, both literally and figuratively.
As we grew older and finally grew up, we were each lead by our own separate journeys, boundaries, intentions and as we became literal borders apart; our soundtrack paused. It wasn’t until we lost Holly in 2019 that we drew back together. I think that we were both inclined to lean-in to our childhood connection and support each other through one of the most unexpected and excruciating losses that either of us had experienced up until that particular moment in time. It was at Holly’s burial, we again held hands and held each other together just like when we were confident and friendly little five years olds. They lowered our beloved troublemaker into the ground and we instinctively knew that our reconnection had to remain intact.
When I moved back home to Nova Scotia, I finally got a full taste of Vanassa’s talent. In 2022, Anthony and I spent a date night at the casino where Asia and Nu Gruv happened to be booked. I don’t know if it was the rhythm of the band, the fact that we knew the lyrics to every song or the wild charisma of the performance that got to me, but I was completely overcome with pride. And Joy. Ever since, we often plan our outings around their performances and especially look forward to events when they are named as the evening’s entertainment. I have yet to see a crowd not get out of their skin when Asia and Nu Gruv are performing; they make the air around them become electric.
I was 47 years old when I realized that I had my very own Shug Avery all along. An inspiration of perseverance, hard work and soulful beauty. I am guilty that it took me so long to realize the gift of our connection. Vanassa is one of the only people I know who grew up to be exactly who she said she would be and her special energy hasn’t changed since age five. Very much like Shug, Vanassa is fiercely independent. I know this because she balances at least 4 different professions at any given time. She’s practical, fearless, loyal and sensual. Vanassa the daughter, Vanassa the mother, Vanassa the wife, Vanassa the sister and Vanassa the friend does whatever she has to do to thrive in this lifetime. Both she and Asia The Singer are a valuable community treasure. The music within her was bred, born and raised in North Preston. He work ethic and drive are derived from being an eighties-raised, too-young-to be-responsible latch key kid. No matter the accolades she is awarded throughout her lifetime and music career, She is ours.
Asia and her community of incredibly skilled and fine-tuned musicians are the keepers of our music. The band, the accompaniment all decorating our collective timelines with the soundtrack of our lives. It doesn’t matter if we’re dancing, if we’re rapping or if we’re shooping along with her and the band; This woman personifies Music Is Life And Life Is Living.
Robert Frost didn’t know what he was talking about when he wrote “Nothing gold can stay.” Despite her fair share of life’s never-ending onslaught of challenges, Vanassa is living her whole entire life like it’s golden and I love that for her.
Light reflected is Enlightenment Infinite.
~R

